Lately I’ve felt a bit disconnected spiritually cause I’ve just worked way too much without taking any time to reflect or enjoy. So now that I’m back in my house after traveling for a month, I started thinking what it is that makes me truly happy and I figured it out… so I thought I’d share my thoughts with you:
I told u guys I had this really bad depression in december and I couldn’t really get out of bed for a month. I was looking ahead and all I saw was how much work I was gonna have to do to go to the next level from where I was.
And although I’ve never had a question in my mind that I was gonna be an artist since I was like 5, this december must have been the one time where I seriously questioned if everything that I had been working for was even worth it.
It was a strange feeling. Like u’ve been walking on a path ignoring all the other roads that could have taken you to other places. You’ve been on this path and people have walked with you and some quit and some took other roads, some got slow and u had to leave them behind.
And then there I was on the road looking ahead and all I saw was a long, endless road. “I have walked so long and never questioned if i was on the right road but I am tired of this road!” I said to myself.
I was feeling very alone cause all I’ve done since I started 10 years ago was to leave everything and everyone behind. I saw that everything I’ve already done was nothing compared to everything I’m gonna have to do to take the next step and I didn’t know if I wanted to make that sacrifice.
I don’t know what it’s like to have a simple life. I don’t know what it’s like to stop working at the end of the day and just hang out. I was feeling so alone.
I broke through.
I BECAME CURIOUS.
All of a sudden it wasn’t about where the road was taking me. It was about what was on the road. How could I not pay attention before?
All the little rocks on the road – each one of them unique and interesting. All the plants growing beside the road – each one of them having different leaves, different color. All the smells in the air coming from villages and cities nearby. And there were people that occasionally came and walked with me. They weren’t boring! Each one of them had their own struggles, their own perception and oh so many stories to share that kept walking with them interesting. All of them had something to say that offered me a different perspective.
It was still the same road, just the way I saw it was different.
I started embracing every little moment, every person that I came in contact with. Running into roadblocks just made me smile cause I saw them as something that is part of my road, trying to send me a message of some kind. I even started feeling more than ever that I was creating the road. All I had to do was to think of something and it would manifest on the road. I became a child and every day became a fun game.
It’s all in our heads.
Choose to see life through the eyes of a child cause u deserve nothing less that to have an amazing journey as a human.
Embrace E V E R Y T H I N G.
It’s always perfect and you are and will always be fine, my dear one.
Abstract: Lately I’ve felt a bit disconnected spiritually cause I’ve just worked way too much without taking any time to reflect or enjoy. So now that I’m back in my house after traveling for a month, I started thinking what it is that makes me truly happy...
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